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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Just thinking

... Just for a reference you should know that I have MS as a result of my service in Vietnam and the VA worries about my mental health. I came home from thirty months of duty over there and in complete honesty I was only attacked three or four times in the last tour composed of my last six months of military service. I'm not crazy and I haven't thought of killing myself for quite a few years now. The Va has me see my shrink 4 times a year to keep an eye on my condition and to insure that I'm taking my mood enhancers and I don't mind.
... Because I have the MS, brought on by 24 months of Agent orange, Blue and White exposure I am oft asked if I regret or would change my past if I could. The truth is that my past, all of it, has made me what I am today. A friend of mine was on the Enola Gay when it bombed Japan with it's nuke and he, like myself takes the drugs to help him not dream so much and to be easier to get along with. He is over sixty years away from that day and he still tosses in his sleep because he sees that bomb falling and going off. My wife has taken to sleeping in a seperate bed because she does not do well when I wake her in the wee hours screaming and flailing at her to get in the hole before they kill her, I can't say that I blame her at all.
... There are many dreamers that want to be known as a hero but only the men that wear the medals understand the price that is paid for the distinction. I remember the first man I ever killed and watched the life pour out of his eyes. At that very moment I lost a part of me that I have never been able to regain and I have never been the same person from that day on. The dreamers need to know that there is a price that is extracted for every adventure a man pursues and there is no-one else to pay your dues for you. Would I do it differently, no! I believed then and I believe now that those gentile people deserve freedom and freedom is the most expensve commodity a man will ever purchase, it is bought with the blood of good men and there is no substitute for the price.
... Today, a gentleman began to tell me how wrong it was for the government to spray us in Vietnam and how sad he thought it was that I was strapped to my wheelchair. I cut him short and explained to him that I had to write my Congressman before the Army would let me volunteer to go to Vietnam the first time and as he stood there, with a slack jaw, I finished with I volunteered all three times and so it is my fault that I was sprayed so much and if I needed to do it over I would.
... I do not understand these young people today. I was taught by my WWII Hero dad that if you loved someone or something you would die for it. There were an unbelievable number of young Americans that loved this country in the forties, about a half a million of them died fighting for my freedom and today there are still a few good men in this country and some of them are paying with their lives and others are coming home in worse shape than I did and we need to always remember to remember them. Pray for your defenders every day, they are all that is restraining the Muslim invasion.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Christian Computers

... I will forever admit that I am considered a brash individual because I tend to say exactly what I mean without trying to be politically correct. With that known I tell you today that it is absurd the number of Christians that waste their resources by buying a computer with a Windows operating system on it. Then these same people, the parents of tomorrow's Presidents, Prime Ministers, Worship Leaders and Pastors turn their impressionable children loose on the Internet. But, some of you object, I put software on it to keep them safe. I'll resort to my Greek here and give you a loud, Baloney!
... Dell Computers now sells their units with the option of installing Ubuntu and there-by spending less for your new computer and if you have an old unit that has died a horrible death it is very likely that you are guilty of the same slackness that 95% of the world is guilty of and that there is, most likely, nothing wrong with your old computer. I revive discarded units every day by turning them on and inserting an Ubuntu disk and installing Ubuntu or UbuntuCE over the corrupted Windows system.
... UbuntuCE is the Christian Edition of the point and click operating system that is written by Christians for Christians. The learning curve of this system is almost flat for the Windows operator. It is so widely accepted now that when I called AT&T Tech. Support last evening they said that's great when I told them my operating system. The tech. said that they were supporting Ubuntu because it was so very much like XP.
... I will tell you that not only is Microsoft so concerned that they have agreed to support XP for an additional 5 years because of the rapidly increasing popularity of Ubuntu. The OS is not the only thing that is free. The system comes with a Professional Quality Office system, preinstalled. Add to that the truth that the system will run most of your MS software but installing the free program named Wine and it hardly seems important that there are over four thousand programs that will do anything that Windows software will do and now I'm going to hurt you, they are all free and you just point and click while conected to the Internet and they are installed.
... So, why did I rag on parents? UbuntuCE is equiped with a feature known as Dan's Guardian that your children cannot defeat as long as you are the Administrator and refuse to give them your log-in and password. Your children are as safe as you wish them to be on that computer.
... Where do you download these remarkable systems? You will download UbuntuCE at www.ubuntuce.com and Ubuntu at www.ubuntu.com .

Thursday, December 18, 2008

God

... I have begun a new study on the sovereignty of God and it is a very thought provoking study. The book is Trusting God, Even When Life Hurt by Jerry Bridges. One of the early items of intense study is the Absolute Sovereignty of our LORD. This is a matter that I have seen very experienced Christians trip over and that is a shame. In the first place it is absolutely necessary to understand and to believe that nothing has ever or will ever sneak up on God and surprise him.
... There are several life examples I can draw from here that will illustrate what I am talking about but I'll just use the one that offends no-one. I have had MS since the early seventies and they have been able to diagnose it for almost twenty years now. That I, a combat veteran and definitely a man have the disease is enough to cause doubt and yet it hasn't. The fact that I have contracted the disease because of the need to defoliate the jungle for our men's protection is another reason to question God's authority and still I do not. Before I was growing inside my mother's womb, God knew that I would volunteer to go serve in Vietnam because I would believe that the South Vietnamese people deserved freedom. None of this has taken God by surprise.
... God knew from the very beginning of the creation that Bill Taylor would get sick with this disease, so the question might be asked, "Did He know and still allow it?" For the answer to that look at the Book of Job. Satan told God that Job was only worshiping Him because He had a hedge of God's protection about him. God took that hedge away and Satan took all of Job's children, all of his possessions and then afflicted him with boils and sores so badly that all Job could do for relief was to scrape them with shells and stones. Job was sorely tested and still his faith remained in God.
... Going, many centuries, in time forward we find Jesus, God's only Son hanging on the cross paying the debt that Bill Taylor owed to God. He was laid down on that cross and nails of about a quarter inch square were driven into the hole in the bone in the center of the wrist, one for each hand. And then His feet were placed atop of each other and a nail of, judging by my feet, at least 8 or 9 inches in length, square and most likely about the same thickness was driven through the bones in His feet. After all of that torture He was lifted upright and dropped into the hole meant to keep Him erect until He would die. And if I had been to only sinner that would ever have accepted His sacrifice, He would have done so, just the same.
... Yes, God knew before I was born that my fate, His plan, included this disease and yes, He could have prevented it but the fact is that He did not because He had a plan to glorify Himself and in doing so to raise up sinners mark on the scales of life a few inches. I absolutely believe that God, through His Wisdom, has allowed me to have MS, to lose my very best friend in life to a mortar in his chest, to receive over three hundred entry holes in my aircraft in a single mission and many other trials for my own good and for His Glory.(Rom. 8:28)
... The question that must be asked by each and everyone of us is, "Are we ready to serve God? No matter what?"

Monday, December 1, 2008

Loving God In Difficult Times

... I have a free puppy that is a half breed Dachshund. Because there is so very much inbreeding with the Dachshund they commonly have a genetic form of mange that is not contagious and my baby, Delilah, has this incurable disease and even though she is just over a year old and in spite of the truth that I am on a very fixed income because of my disability, I have spent better than two thousand dollars to fight this death dealing disease that has no cure. A very logical first question would be, “Why.”
... There are different answers that are all true but there is one that might mean the world to each of you and today I would like to tell you about why a man raised with a Texas farmers values would ever reach the point that he could ignore all the perfectly sound reasoning that he grew up with and instead of using the common sense that he is so proud of, he would fail to use a thirty-eight cent bullet to cure this problem. As I have grown older, I have gained wisdom and a great deal of that wisdom is the result of walking with my LORD, these past eighteen years.
... Some days when I wake up, Delilah is the very first living thing I see and she jumps from the floor, into my lap, in the wheel chair, and she washes every inch of my face and my bald head. On other mornings, the ones I want to concentrate on, she will wait for me to sit in my recliner and then she crawls into my lap and she sets down on my right leg, facing the far wall, and she sits straight up and just tilts back until she is as close to my body as she can possibly be and begins to snuggle until I caress and stroke her bare belly and just love on her. In that defenseless position I could end her life in an instant and yet in that position with my hand stroking her, she snuggles that long nose against and around my neck as she holds still and allows me to love her.
... In Psalm 46:10 God, our Father, has commanded us to be still and to find that true and unfailing love that He has for us. Today, with no expendable income, in the midst of all the rumors of financial ruin and the collapse of bank after bank and companies rolling over and closing, folks ask me to tell them what to do. Well, actually, I have the answer. I need to buy my wife a new truck and with no liquid income I am going to do just that very thing. The Great Depression came about because of foolish men and this recession/depression today is a result of the same thing, foolish men. The Great depression grew to be so incredibly bad because men were foolish enough to forget God and instead to trust in themselves. If this is ever to grow to the same point all that need happen is for foolish men to once more forget who it is that holds them in His hand and to fail to turn back to Him.
... When the brook had no more water to sustain Elijah, God sent him to live with a Widow and her son and they had the makings for one more loaf of bread and then they had planned to die. At the Word of God, Elijah assured her that if she backed that last loaf of bread and would, because of God's promise, feed him first that the ingredients for making one more loaf of bread would always be there when it was needed. And that silly(?) woman believed that God would do what He had promised and baked Elijah the last loaf of bread in the house. Because God loves His children, in much the same way I love that hole digging puppy, they always had just enough flour and oil to make one more loaf, just enough to serve their need.
... I laugh and I take such pure joy in loving that puppy and from loving her and listening to the Holy Spirit of God as I study the Word I have been taught such wonderful lessons about my relationship with the LORD. It is my heart cry for each of your ears to just trust God the way Delilah trusts me. I have trusted Him, in that manor for these past eighteen years and in my darkest moments He has never failed me. Tonight, do as I do most every night. Get ready for bed and instead of just running through your nightly routine, crawl into that bed and just be still and call out to God and just wait and listen to Him. He loves you so much He'll rub your belly for you if that's what you truly need.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Computers and Their Cost

... It has been some time now since my last rant on computers. I was working up an estimate for a friend the other day and was once more slapped in the face with the cost of the operating system that Microsoft charges. The cheapest I found a full copy of WindowsXP Pro for was $189.00 plus Shipping and the best I've found Windows Vista Ultimate for is $360.00 plus the shipping. For less than $600.00 I can build a terrific computer complete with a dual core processor but if the person wants Windows on their unit the price automatically jumps by more that two hundred dollars and that is indecent.
... Because of my age and my status in the system I have ceased to charge folks for my labor and have began to push hard the Ubuntu operating system. Ubuntu operates with the same type of point and click system that Windows users love. The huge problem with the system is the cost, it is free and people do not like free. If it doesn't cost them money they do not trust it. The biggest advantage to the Ubuntu system is the fact that one need not run an Anti-Virus or a Firewall program. Being a security freak I run both any way. Another large plus is the fact that there are thousands of programs from a complete Office (Microsoft's costs over $600) and thousands of programs available for taking the time to download them and the office apps will even save in the Microsoft native formats plus these apps will open documents and such from the Windows machines. Not only that but if you are really hung up on the MS Apps you just point and click to download Wine and the install that app inside your Wine program and it runs as a native of Ubuntu.
... Are you afraid that you will not be able to test it? Maybe you have the room or another disk you can put it on but your not smart enough to set up a dual boot system so that you have your windows system for a safety net. Well, to just test the system all you need is a Live CD and to get that you can contact me at gods-servant@sbcglobal.net and I'll burn and ship you a copy for ten dollars labor and shipping cost, the software is free. Another method, even cheaper is to go to Ubuntu.com and download the .iso file and burn your own copy. Then you put the disk into your computer, do a restart and it should boot from the CD allowing you to test the system a reduced speed because it will not write to you hard drive. These Live CDs are also the complete system for the install if you choose to install it. And now, about that dual boot system, it is cover for you by the disk. If you already have Windows on your 'puter the Live CD will automatically set you up for a dual boot of both systems.
... I can do no more than to beg you to stop tossing your hard earned money into file thirteen at MS and give this OS a try, it will cost you nothing and will, over your life save you thousands of dollars.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Are you free?

... One of the things that is so very hard for the new Christian to get a girp on is their sinful nature and I believe that this has a great deal to do with why we see folks come into the church, make a profession of faith and then they are lost to us. Galatians is a book that these folks need to study a bit. It is only five short chapters long, so it is a quick read though a person can spend a life time in the study of this short book of the Bible.
... In this letter to the church there we see that Paul's work is being undone by the Jews trying to force the Christians to live by the Law and to forget God's grace. The very first thing I believe that every new Christian needs to understand is that they are free from their former life style. That means that we now have the option to refuse to sin and not that we will never be tempted. We will be tempted and there might even be a time that we slip because we become so distracted that we forget that we have the option to please God and by doing so, to please our selves without being ashamed of what we have done. I suppose the best way to say this is that we are now changed because we no longer plan to sin as we did, at least I did, before we were saved. And as we grow in our walk with Christ we will slip less and less.
... When we are saved we are indwelt with the Holy Spirit but early on we are not practiced at listening to that influence and it is easy to ignore. As we walk with God we are also chastised by Him when we fail to listen to the Spirit and through this process we become more attuned to what the Spirit is trying to tell us. This is exactly the way we were raised when we were youngsters and God has always been the Good Father. For example, if, when we were young, we lived beside a busy street or highway our mom and dad would forbid us to go into the street and if we did they would spank us to get our attention focused. We were not told to avoid the street because they did not want us to enjoy our lives, it was so that we would enjoy our life. It is exactly the same with God.
... From the Law we all learn that we are sinners but no one has ever been saved by following the Law. From the time of Abraham, salvation has been a product of grace and only by grace. This will never change and we in the church have got to stop killing the wounded and instead learn to give them a hand up. We are called, by God, to restore the fallen and when we learn to live our mission out we will stop scaring the new Christian away.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The State of the Union and the Christian

... I have been busy the past month trying to convince folks claiming the name of Christ that God really does care about who they vote for and since the election it has been my goal to get folks to pray for the President that our LORD has put into the White House whether they approve of the gentleman or not. Having pursued these ends that are well within the wishes of God I have been ignoring this blog. To any of you that are bored enough to care to read the ramblings of an old man, I apologize for ignoring my duty here. I will attempt to be more faithful in my rants and my attempts to teach the Gospel.
... Since I have noticed, at www.bibleforums.org, that so many folks today are not concerned with seeking after the will of God for every action they take I'd like to spend just a moment on that subject. God is concerned about every detail of your life. The Bible even assures us of this truth. (Luke 12:7) If God knows the exact number of hairs on your head at any given moment in time, could there ever be a single thing that you can do that God does not know? God has been so concerned about this servant that He has even sent folks to see that I recieve enough money in any given month to feed my wife and my daughter, even though I'll never be able to work another day of my life. Because I can't sleep at night unless I am proped up in an expensive hospital bed, God has provided me with just that. Because I have a drop foot because of the disease that is caused by my wounds and chemical exposure from the war, God has even provided a, just invented, special brace that is spring loaded and lifts the toe of my foot so that I do not take a header when I walk.
... To believe that God does not care about how one of His children votes is a very small box to try to put the creator of the universe into.